About the internal interview, i didnt get the job. Aku dapat tahu via email from the HR. Even though I have done my best with my case study, presentation and the interview itself...seems like the rezeki is not for me (yet).
Aku tak put blame on anyone yet ayat “kalau la...” is still in my head. Frustration and despair memang terasa. I am a normal human with feelings so haruslah kecewa kan.
Ni lah bahayanya inner thuoughts. What-if tu is an inner thought. Bukannya aku tak redha langsung, cuma ada part yang aku rasa tak senang and kecewa.
Aku buat presentatio/slide aku sendiri. Yes, my team leader helped me with 2nd opinions and discussion but what frustrated me the most is when she handed over her original slides to other candidates. No, I bukan jealous. I am totally okay sebab who am i to control apa yang my TL nak buat. Yet aku rasa macam
“Apesal kau kena bagi the whole slide to her FIRST instead of me ? Bukan ke aku agent kau ?”
Yes, she indeed justified that she wanted to help everyone. Tapi, the other candidates ada TL dia sendiri. And you are my TL, you were supposed to help me or prioritised me. Yup. PRIORITY is the key right now. Okay lah, to be fair my TL ni memang baik. I tak puji you, sebab you baca blog i okay.
To help people in need is what indeed an amalan mulia. Sebab tu aku was okay je when she told me that she shared her slides with other.
I am proud with myself because i did everything myself. Aku berpuas hati dengan keputusan yang aku tak diterima. It was a good experience and a stepping stone for a good direction, at least for me. I wouldnt let the dissapoinment to take tolls on me so aku just perlu continue with what i am doing right now as usual. Ye lah wei, aku ni ada dua perut nak kena isi. Perasaan sedih ni tak boleh layan sangat.
And guess what ? The selected candidate tu memang copy bulat-bulat apa yang ada dalam slide TL aku. Since aku buat semua sendiri, i deserve to be heartbroken and sad. Sebab i have done everything from scratch.
Aku tak bermusuh dengan TL aku pun. Professional is another key. Yang tak professional tu adalah, when the other candidate’s TL take credit on what my TL had done. Perghhh aku bengang gila kot.
People took fame or credit from other people’s hardwork is simply disgusting. Pastu dengan confidentnya boleh up status “One of my achievement and self satisfaction as a leader, to create more leaders” Like WTF betul bunyi dia. Create more leader my ass lah wei. Kalau betul you created your agent to become a TL like you, why would she seeks help from my TL then ? Geezzzzz
And also, your agent didn’t do much pun
Setakat nak copy paste, Ali pun hebat. Heh
